Deja Vu

and again, and again, my whirlwind is ceasing. slowly, like sand and dust settling on the ground. the slow sia coming down from our ars to the toilet bowl pit...watever~

ok la, damn sianz lor. always rush rush come, rush rush end. 2 wks of heat, 1 wk of snow. used to it le.like i say, sweet memories...but still...there's a time, u will miss it, than u get over it, than accept it, and ta-dah! sweet memories!;)

kk...damn du lan also. dunno y i gt such gal friends. nv email me any thing b4, email nia, is "must forward to XXX pple, or else die here die there, ur who who will die" cb...somemore she veg. knn...

1st, she's supersitious! only shit do such things. any of u receive such stuff from me, must be i taking revenage on u for sending me. but than again, i dun waste time emailing pple. so whoever tat email me those, lucky bastard! i am forgiving!

2nd, she's selfish! how can she forward such thing! coz she scare happen to her, she forward, ask pple go and die. err xin rite?

3rd, i think she hate me. or else y forward me? ---_____---1

tat's y, friends~. sometime i also wonder, y i hao xin share lobang wif pple wif the purpose of synergy, helping friends of both sides, kenna sacastic reply. whoever u r, dun teach ur father how to fuck!

there are so many things i wanna said. really. so many things. everyday tell yang i also paiseh. i knw, we r buddies, but i also paiseh mah...dun wanna treat him like wall...lol...btw, coz we r study buddies, tat's y always meet...thnks bro, minus the lateness...wohahahah __1___

I really nv expect..

as u guys...i mean GUYS...knw tat i always make friends, esp the pretty ones...;p. at least i'm honest. watever~

i always send "a smile" in friendster wif msg like wanna be friends...etc...but nv haf i ever in my life, imagine tat someone will send me a smile...and said,"Hi manfred, can we be friends?" by the name of Lionel! simi lan jiao???

http://profiles.friendster.com/user.php?uid=2962363&ref_smile=1

go view his profile..shld i hook up wif him?

x___X

really stun....i really dun wish Mr Karma wanna me be shag by some1...mercy Lord...

No one is perfect, and is a blessing

well, had a rather happening April. but than again, no intention to share yet. so far, is juz a another short romance to put into my pocket, and die wif a smile in the future.

Anyway, was thinkin, was reflecting, man, i'm glad i'm so inperfect. really. i haf so many skeletons in the closets, so much, tat i really believe tat if i novalise it, it will be a best-seller! really! full of humour and scandels, and wow wow...

so much happen tat i ask myself, if yrs ago, i nv met her, and broke up wif her, and all the shits tat happen, i will be a damn boring creature, who live a wasted life away. yes, i might not be a millionaire(how many of us are anyway?), a star, or watever, but in my own rights, i achieve wat not many men can. yes, i'm loving it, and enjoying it.

for the records, i only had 1 real gf, a nos of almost-here-nor-there r/s, but really, is the AHNT r/s tat are the sweetest. ok, maybe not all...but most. there r short sweet love story, tragics, porn...ya, they r all nice romance, and memories. but i need to thanks my 1st breakup for all of them. coz after tat, i really appreciate watever short term r/s i had. they r short, start fast, end fast. and it always end b4 some1 is hurt. and yes, i haf nothing to badmouthed them.

well, if i was nv imperfect, or so call of it, i guess some of them wont be part of my sweet memories...coz at the 1st place, i could haf mind their past...and nothing happen. but becoz of my "stain", i felt, tat i'm in no position to judge anybody, and instead, as long as they're willing for me, who cares bout their past. but really, is always the ones tat haf skeletons in their closet, leaving the sweetest memories in me.

perhaps, i guess, is i like gal wif a past, who survive it, and learn from it, and can handle the future, man...tat is sexy. and yes, she is sexy, alrite...is impossible, but the times we had, however short it was, it was sweet.

i trace back my past, and i guess my last strand of naivity in r/s was wash away tat very day, months after my breakup, i was pouring water, and tokin to my sis. suddenly, i juz said i missed her, and i juz broke down. yes...is damn gay...but well, like my sis said, "and tat day, a monster was born..." yea...maybe, when my sis hear bout my confession of wat i did, she was like, "wat happen?" but enjoying every tales of it...yes...my sis, always so supportive.

Yes, i'm not perfect, so i haf no divine right to be judgmental, but yes, i'm easier, and happier.

Thnks for the sweet moments, i really love those oxtail